Praxis

So, I can't really say why I haven't been writing on here as much as I was before. maybe I just need to get back into the habit of it. I think tomorrow I'll write some of the stuff I have been thinking about from my notebooks. This past week I read "The call of Cthulhu" by H.P. Lovecraft, and I fell in love with it. It's dark, depressing,ominous, and hopeless. Just like reality is supposed to be apart from an all loving benevolent God. You either have chaos or you have control, there is no inbetween,middle, or neutral ground. A lot of people say they don't believe in God, but they still live like there is one; call it the residue of Christendom or whatever you want, its still there; alive and well. No one wants to ruthlessly examine their own beliefs or the underground presupositions that hold up their beliefs. Then I read Lovecraft and I see that he understands what his choice means. I like that he doesn't run away from it. I think if a lot of Christians sat down and examined themselves in this way they would find a significant amount of what they say does not match up with what they do. So many wonderful concepts and doctrines within Christianity have become just words to us. What does grace mean? What does it look like like? How do I model it?

"The unexamined life is not worth living." - Socrates

In over my head again.

I've been thinking about so many things lately that I feel its all been jumbled together. Do you know what that means? Time to write something out. But where do I even begin?