I keep my eyes closed and only go where I've been before.

There is this great line from this song called "Thus from my lips, by Yours, my sin is purged" by As Cities Burn that says



"Oh my God, how sweet is the sound

but is it saving a wretch like me?

and Oh my God how sweet is the sound

I once was blind, but now I just look away"



The first time I heard it I cried because it pulled on my heart so much. God restores our sight and cures our blindness and so many times I choose to just look away. What is the point of having sight restored if you are just going to ignore what you see? What's the point of knowing truth if you won't pursue it? The reality of God revealed through Jesus Christ is the most amazing and wonderful thing there is. It reveals hard things about humanity, and I find in myself that often I am a coward and that I flee from responsibility. Those who know truth have a responsibility to act on it and reveal it to others. Ignorance is not an option. The biggest thing missing in my life right now is risk. Risk is an essential part of Christian faith. Risk that I might mess up, risk that I might do everything right and still fail, the risk in investing everything I have and am into this one thing. My life is something I have taken for granted over and over again, and I keep forgetting it's not my own. I was talking with my friend yesterday and we were discussing how this tragedy that happened in her family brought them all closer together. Today I find myself wondering why we have to wait for something tragic to happen in order to hear the things that God is constantly trying to tell us anyway. I don't want to wait for something tragic or for someone I love to die in order to start paying attention. My eyes are open, and I see the things I am supposed to see but I do nothing. That is even worse than pretending you didn't see it at all.